End my Suffering

choking from the strangles of time...aching from the punches of reality...and dieing from the stupidity of love...

when does one learn ones lesson after countless times of what seems to be a repetitive cycle of never ending heart aches...perhaps when ones heart no longer beats..

cold as ice..trapped in the eternal prison of frostbiting chill...why did you even bother to melt the ice of what was already a dead heart...

why bother to warm it up only to break it in the end..

i say this to the one person i know who feels the exact same thing...

end your suffering...as im waiting for someone to end mine...

My Favorite Song While Playing Neosteam

Whenever I play Neosteam I always have a different background music playing to keep me going for a longer time. This song is actually from the anime Blood+

Romaji:

hitorikiri kurayami no naka
kimi no namida no imi wo shitta
negau basho fumi dashita kedo
dare mo kizutsuketaku nakute

umi wo wataru kaze wa kyou mo
mayowazu ni ashita ni mukau no ni
kokoro wa doushite ugoki dasenai

donna unmei ga matte iru n darou
kuyami takunai yo umareta koto
kanashimi no naka ni yuuki ga aru
kagayaki tsukamu to shinjite iru

furishikiru aozora no NAMIDA
itsu no hi ka egao ni kaeru yo

isogiashi oikaketa kaze
yubi no aida wo suri nuketeku
shinjiru koto mada kowai kedo
todomaru koto wa mou shinai

tsuki ga sotto kata wo tataki
mina mo utsushite kureta kiro michi
mayou koto sae wasurete yuku yo

nani mo nai asuga matte ite mo
nani ka wo umidasu te ga aru kara
kimerareta michi mo kaete yukeru
tsuyoi omoi ima komi ageteru

koboreteta aozora no NAMIDA
ashita ni wa kitto hareru kara

miageta saki he to
aruki daseru hazu
doko made mo yukeru
jibun naku sanai nara

donna unmei ga matte iru n darou
kuyami takunai yo umareta koto
kanashimi no naka ni yuuki ga aru
kagayaki tsukamu to shinjite iru

furishikiru aozora no namida
itsu no hi ka egao ni kaeru yo

English:

All alone in the darkness,
I learned the meaning of your tears.
I've stepped forward to the place I wish for,
Yet I didn't want to hurt anyone.

Even today, the wind crosses over the sea
And faces tomorrow without hesitation.
Why can't my heart begin to move?

What fate awaits me?
I don't want to mourn over the things that have come forth.
Within feelings of sorrow, courage still exists,
And I grasp its radiance while believing.

Tears flow down from a clear blue sky.
Someday they'll change into a smile.

The wind that quickly chased after me
Slips between my fingers now.
I'm still too scared to trust,
But I won't stop no matter what!

As the moon softly grazes my shoulders,
And its silver path reflects on the water,
I've come to forget how to hesitate.

Even if a tomorrow of nothingness awaits,
There's a way to create something from it.
Even my destiny can keep changing,
And strong feelings are now filling my heart.

The blue sky's tears are overflowing,
But it will surely be sunny tomorrow.

So I can start walking towards
The future I looked up to,
I can go as far as I want...
As long as I don't lose sight of myself.

What fate awaits me?
I don't want to mourn over the things that have come forth.
Within feelings of sorrow, courage still exists,
And I grasp its radiance while believing.

The blue sky's tears rain down incessantly...
Someday they'll change into a smile.

RadiaTa: Spark of a new beginning

An ordinary day turned chaotic when the most feared monster Ancient Crones escaped from its hellish prison. "There's no one that has ever lived after seeing that monster!", everyone in town rumored. Ancient Crones itself commands the most fiendish monsters ever to walk the land of the Elerd continent. As soon as the high council of Elerd kingdom heard of this crisis they immediately scrambled their army to counter attack this threat. "We must not let those monster get near our towns. Once they do, it'll be the end for us", one of the council members said with great anxiety.

"To counter this threat we must the bravest of the brave, the strongest of the strong, our warriors whom we can count on all the time. Summon them to the council hall and inform them of their mission", the king of Elerd ordered the guards.

The warriors march towards the battlefield to protect what is dear to them. But little do they know that the monsters that are preparing to attack the towns were just decoys for the main invasion.

"Bad news everyone. It seems we were fooled by these minions. They're real aim was to lure us away from our towns and strike us at our backs.". "Our towns won't stand a chance with their current numbers, we only have few soldiers back home. Hurry let's return at once and save our home!". But as they were about to cross the giant bridge that would lead them home. Crones shows up and destroys the bridge. "Say farewell to your beloved kingdom" Crones said as he walk away heading towards the town. "We are at a loss...the alternate route home will take us 3 days to travel in. There won't be enough time then."

Back in town monsters are approaching the town gates. "Hurry hold the formation! We must not let them pass these gates!". Out of nowhere a monster suddenly approach one soldier from behind and... "Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!". Suddenly a boy wearing blue armor appeared from above and killed the monster. "Thank you. But you don't seem familiar to me", the soldier said. "My name is Kyuzki. I came from the family of wanderers in the outskirts of the kingdom. Our existence is kept secret due to the horrible past our family has experienced. We were exiled for a crime we did not commit. We were hunted soon after. And now, I am the only survivor left... return to the towns and protect the citizens, I'll hold them off here". The soldiers immediately retreated to the towns to protect their cities. "What was their family called? I don't remember that incident being recorded" one soldier said. "That's because your still new to this job. If I remember correctly their family or clan was called...RadiaTa".

Neosteam Character Analysis: Assassin

In most games that I played in the past I always play a character that specializes in quick kill or characters that has stealth skills and are very agile. After discovering Neosteam I first scouted out the character that I like to play. Though Neosteam has 2 nations with 2 alternate jobs for the rogue class I definitely liked the Elerd's assassin.

Ideal Race choices:

Human

- most ideal race for the rogue class
- has a passive skill that increases attack speed

Taroon

- fast runners good for chasing preys
- has lots of hp and rapid hp regeneration that helps them last longer in battle

Pom

- can equip weapons and armors at an early level which gives them advantage in terms
of attack and defense
- has rapid SP regeneration which makes them a monster skill spammer

Weapon Options:

Dual Wield

- faster attack but lower damage output
- higher skill damage multiplier because of special upgrades on both weapons

Two handed Sword

- Relatively slow attack but higher damage output
- lower skill damage multiplier

Skill Builds:

Skills that need to be maxed out for an assassin of course are attack skills but there is more to an Elerd assassin than just attack skills. They also have amulet skills that aids them in battle.

PvM Build:
This is build is especially designed for killing monsters and not for fighting against other players. This build is able to solo most boss monsters and is able to hunt for a longer time than other classes without having to resupply potions. Dual wield is the most ideal weapon of choice for this skill build. This build emphasizes a balance between attack and support skills. Skills that should be learned for this build are:

Chain Assault(Multiple hits with random damage)[Max]
Fly Attack(Long range sword skill)[Max[
Amulet of Healing(Heals self with the use of combination amulet)[Max]
Amulet of Attack(Increases attack power with combination amulet)[Max]
Amulet of Property(100% critical attacks for the duration of the skill buff)[Max]
Dye Red(Long ranged poison attack)[Max]
Smack Wrist(Long ranged attack that decreases enemy's power)[Max]
Assassination(Gives high damage to enemies with high HP)[Max]
Clarity(Cloak and move without being seen)[Level 1]
Teleport(Warps you to the specified savepoint)[Level 1]
Amulet of Defense(Increases maximum sta and mp and mag defense)[Level 1]


PvP Build:
This build is for player versus player or simply killing other players :P
This build is most suited with two handed swords because they provide the highest damage output that of a one handed sword.
Skills for this build are:

Chain Assault[Max]
Fly Attack[Max]
Dye Red[Max]
Smack Wrist[Max]
Amulet of Attack[Max]
Amulet of Property[Max]
Assassination[Max]
Clarity[Level 5]
Snap Charger(Decreases enemy's defense with certain probability)[Max]

The above mention are just my opinions though feel free to leave some comments or share your ideas with regards to this little thingy I made :D

When Crowlers Attack




Byousoki 5cm - One More Time, One More Chance



English:

How much more will I have to lose, before my heart is forgiven?
How many more pain will I have to suffer, to meet you once again?
One more time, oh seasons, don't disappear
One more time, the time when we were messing around

Whenever we argued, I would always give in first right?
Your selfish nature made me love you even more
One more chance, the memories stopped my legs
One more chance, I cannot choose my next destination

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
On the opposite platform, in the windows along the lane
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If my wish were to come true, I would be at your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn’t do
I would put everything on the risk and hold you tight, I'll show you.

If I just wanted to distract my loneliness, anybody would have been enough.
The stars seems like it will fall in the night which is why i can't lie to myself.
One more time, oh seasons, don't disappear
One more time, the time when we were messing around

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
Even when I'm crossing a street, Even in the midst of my dreams
Even though I know you couldn’t be at a place like this!
If a miracle were to happen, I would want to show you immediately
A new morning, who I’ll be from now on
And the words i never said called: "I Love You"

The memories of summer are revolving
The throbbing which suddenly disappeared

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
At dawn on the streets, at Sakuragi-cho
Even though I know you couldn’t be at a place like this!
If my wish were to come true, I would return to your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn’t do
I would risk everything and hold you tight I'll show you!

I’m always searching, for fragments of you to appear somewhere
At a traveller’s store, in the corner of newspaper,
Even though I know you couldn’t be at a place like this!
If a miracle were to happen, I would want to show you immediately
A new morning, who I’ll be from now on
And the words I never said called: “I Love You.”

I always end up looking for your smile, to appear somewhere
At the railroad crossing, waiting for the express to pass
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place
If our lives could be restarted,
No matter how many times it will be I will go back to you
What I would wanted then would then be nothing
The Things Other Then You!

Romaji:

Koreijou nani wo ushinaeba kokoro wa yurusareru no
Dore hodo no itami naraba mou ichido kimi ni aeru
One more time kisetsu yo utsurowanaide
One more time fuzake atta jikan yo

Kuichigau toki wa itsumo boku ga saki ni oreta ne
Wagamama na seikaku ga naosara itoshiku saseta
One more chance kioku ni ashi wo torarete
One more chance tsugi no basho wo erabenai

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no sugata wo
Mukai no HOOMU rojiura no mado
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni
Negai ga moshimo kanau nara ima sugu kimi no moto e
Dekinai koto wa mou nanimo nai
Subete kakete dakishimete miseru yo

Sabishisa magirasu dake nara
Dare demo ii hazu na no ni
Hoshi ga ochisou na yoru dakara
Jibun wo itsuwarenai
One more time kisetsu yo utsurowanaide
One more time fuzake atta jikan yo

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no sugata wo
Kousaten demo yume no naka demo
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni
Kiseki ga moshimo okoru nara ima sugu kimi ni misetai
Atarashii asa korekara no boku
Ienakatta suki to iu kotoba mo

Natsu no omoide ga mawaru fui ni kieta kodou

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no sugata wo
Akegata no machi sakuragichou de
Konna toko ni kuru hazu mo nai no ni
Negai ga moshimo kanau nara ima sugu kimi no moto e
Dekinai koto wa mou nanimo nai
Subete kakete dakishimete miseru yo

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no kakera wo
Tabisaki no mise shinbun no sumi
Konna toko ni aru hazu mo nai no ni
Kiseki ga moshimo okoru nara ima sugu kimi ni misetai
Atarashii asa kore kara no boku
Ienakatta suki to iu kotoba mo

Itsu demo sagashite shimau dokka ni kimi no egao wo
Kyuukou machi no fumikiri atari
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni
Inochi ga kurikaesu naraba nandomo kimi no moto e
Hoshii mono nado mou nanimo nai
Kimi no hoka ni taisetsu na mono nado

Prince of Tennis - Wonderful Days


English:

On a bright afternoon, I open the window
I run without a reason on the shaded road
I took a breath with my shoulders, closed my eyes
And pictured a stage that starts from tomorrow
I’m forming an image of a new page
I’ll draw it on a pure white canvas
The head wind unmindfully opens up
This endlessly continuing, Brand new story

Ah, wonderful days

At the zebra-patterned intersection
When it turns green, I start running
I finish crossing it while only stepping on the white lines
Like a kid

Always blown upon by the wind in this way
If I could have been as I were
Then I would’ve faced the far sky, stretched out my hands, and, as if reach for my thoughts
Let go

I’ll quicken my feet stepping on the pedals
And race up the slope in a breath
Now it’s the long approaching run before jumping
While I feel my throbbing heartbeats
When I finish climbing this hill
And the summit becomes visible
The southern wind will outstrip my back
As if notifying me of the signs of a beginning

Ah, wonderful days

I repeated the little bit that is left again and again
And came here before I knew it
Even the shining light in the depths of my field of view already Reaches for the sky

If, at anytime, I didn’t forget the thoughts that were still tucked away
In my chest and always kept warming them
Then I’m sure that someday, like a nameless bird
I would push forward through this great sky to my heart’s content

The future that I search for through fumbling is a keyless door at all times
I kept searching for it without even being able to detect the light in front of my eyes
The doodle on my desk
Is the map that I’d pictured some other day
Aiming for for a place
That no one has walked on
That even the sun doesn’t know about

Always blown upon by the wind in this way
If I could have been as I were
Then I would’ve faced the far sky, stretched out my hands, and, as if reach for my thoughts
Let go
Let go…



Romaji:


mabushii gogo mado wo akeru
wakemonaku kakeru hikage no komichi
kata de iki wo suikonde me wo toji
omoi egaita ashita kara no STAGE
IMAGE shiteru atarashii PAGE
masshiroi CAMPUS ni egaku
mukai kaze mo okamai nashi de kirihiraku
kono hate naku tsuzuku Brand new story

Ah, wonderful days,wonderful days,wonderful days

ZEBRA moyou no kousaten
ao ni kawaru to hashiridasu
shiroi LINE dake wo funde watarikiru
kodomo no you ni

itsumo konna fuu ni kaze ni fukare
ari no mama no jibun de iru koto ga moshi mo dekiteita nara
tooi sora ni mukete ryoute nobashi kono omoi todoku you ni to
tokihanatteku

PEDAL wo fumu ashi wo hayame
ikki ni sakamichi kakeagaru
ima tobidatsu mae no nagai josou
takamaru kodou kanji nagara
kono saka wo noborikitte
tebben ga miete kita goro ni
minamikaze ga senaka wo oikoshite yuku
hajimari no aizu wo shiraseru you ni

Ah, wonderful days, wonderful days,wonderful,wonderful,wonderful days

ato sukoshi dake wo kurikaeshi
itsu no manika koko made kiteta
mou shikai no oku ni kagayaku hikari sae Reach for the sky

donna toki mo mune ni shimai konda mama no
omoi wasurenai de zutto atatame tsuzuketa nara
kitto itsuka namonai tori no you ni omou mama
kono oozora wo tsukisusundeku

tesaguri de sagasu mirai wa itsudemo kagi no nai tobira
me no mae ni aru hikari mo mitsukerarezu sagashi tsuzuketa
tsukue ni aru rakugaki wa
itsuka omoi egaita chizu
dare mo aruita koto no nai
taiyou sae shiranai basho
mezashite

itsumo konna fuu ni kaze ni fukare
ari no mama no jibun de iru koto ga moshi mo dekiteita nara
tooi sora ni mukete ryoute nobashi kono omoi todoku you ni to
tokihanatteku tokihanatteku
tokihanatteku tokihanatteku
(Wonderful Days)